Hi All!
So as i had said in my previous/first blog post, I’m currently doing a “challenge” where i read a chapter of Proverbs everyday until i get through the whole book. With that being said, of course… today i read chapter 20.
While this chapter was jam packed with knowledge and do’s and don’ts as were the previous chapters, it was actually the very last verse that stood out to me the most. I’ll briefly run through [ I decided to just add the screenshots of the notes i took along the way ] some of the things i got from the verses that preceded Proverbs 20:30 then really dive into detail as to why THAT scripture specifically spoke to me… Let’s begin!
SO! now that we’ve gotten through that, I’d like to share with you the importance of Proverbs 20:30 to me by filling you in on a… strange dream i had about a month or so ago.
“Wounding blows cleanse away evil, and beatings purge the innermost parts.” – Proverbs 20:30 WEB
So my best friend and i had gotten thee BIGGEST of laughs over this dream because… well you’ll see… but the both of us were also wondering what it could possibly mean.
Honestly, instead of trying to figure it out for myself, my first thought was to try and google what it might mean but one, it was a pretty outlandish dream that i didn’t really even know how to search and two, your dreams are for you and i don’t think anyone could truly interpret what message God gave YOU through your dreams… They’re specifically designed for you and you only.
I’ll stop blathering now and get started on what my dream was lol
In my dream, i had walked into a high school gym where they were doing a bunch of construction. there was a table off to the side with papers that i apparently thought i was supposed to be signing. When i started to look over them, someone came up to me and said “Don’t even worry about that. You’ve already donated your body and your friends are waiting for you in the back. I’ll take you.”… I’m heavily confused even in my dream as to what he meant by ‘i already donated my body’ (but later on I got the feeling that it was a metaphor for me giving my life to Christ). Anyway, when i got to the back room, all my friends where standing around these kegs full of liquid and wondering what we were about to have to do… Before we can even ask any questions or figure anything out, someone from High School comes running in, cuts off his private part and throws it into the liquid filled keg (It ended up looking zombie like)… and he yells, “SEE! IF YOU HAD GOTTEN INTO THAT, THAT’S WHAT WOULD’VE HAPPENED TO YOU!” and i just remember looking over at him and saying, “Ok… By why’d you choose THAT?” (As in why’d he have to show us by throwing in his private part of all things 😅😅😅) Then i woke up.
With how vivid and strange this dream was, i just knew it had to mean something, so i meditated on it and really sat back and on hearing from God about it.
He ended up revealing to me that the reason the person had cut off their private part to show me what would happen is because when i’m not put through the ringer on certain things and really brought to my knees by it… I’ll completely ignore the signs that God gives me to let me know that something isn’t right for me.
I was in a relationship for years that God KEPT giving me signs to let me know that it wasn’t ordained by Him but i repeatedly told myself that maybe that wasn’t the case… until something really hurtful or bad came up and i ended up crying and asking “WHY? WHY? WHY ME?!”. God ended up having to get to the point where he’d reveal some CRAZINESS to me for me to not overlook what He had been telling me all along because… that’s honestly just what was needed… If not, I would’ve continued to look past all the persons indiscretions etc. and rode it out until the end.
I don’t think that “Intuition” is just something to write off as just you or your body trying to tell you something … I believe it’s God speaking to you with feelings and signs.
that’s why Proverbs 20:30 goes so hard for me… Because that REALLY has been the case in my life. I know dang well when The Lord is telling me to turn away from something but for some reason I have a hard time with doing so until He really gives it to me straight && puts me through something that feels dang near detrimental.
I hope you got something from that && pray that you haven’t or won’t be like me just blatantly not paying any mind to the constant signs God gives… He really will speak.. you just have to be willing to listen.
-xoxo VANITY ANN